aH bOi xIaN

2011-04-26T23:33:00.001+08:00

Even though i know i am hurt deep down, but all i want is you to be happy.

2011-01-30T22:50:00.002+08:00

Hello blog..

You are the only one that i can really say my things to.. Got these friends. We planned to have dinner.. And last min someone cant make it.. Everything cancels. She says she was too busy to reply or tell us that she cant make it for the dinner until the day before the dinner. I always dun believe someone is sooo busy until he got no time to reply us or tell us.. Dun tell me when you are on the way home, u are stil busy? when u r in train, u are still busy? CRAPS and CRAPS seriously. Come on... I understand that everyone is busy.. and u tend to forget stuffs. But come on! Is a dinner we planned so long and u forgot? Are you still treating us as a friend? Or you are jus entertaining us? Dun you think friends is important? I bet you will nv forget your best friends dinner no matter wad rite? I feel soo stupid now... Anyway, the dinner was cancelled. So i asked one of the friend in the group if he still wants dinner as i dun eat at home.. No one cooks. But he wants to eat home.. So okay lor.. But.. Haix.. I wonder if you are my best friend.. I am always giving in and giving in... Wad can i do? On the sat we met up for movie. The movie was at 1pm. And we are suppose to meet at 12. Around 1115 i sms to ask if he is otw. He told me he will cab down cox he woke up late. Woke up late? Like how many times alrdy? The day before i still ask him if he is sure that 1pm show is alright? He said ya.. In the end i dun wan him to waste the cab fare becox of jus a small meet up. So i change it to 1230. I asked him again if he can make it on time.. He say ya.. In the end.. He reach at 1.15pm. WTF? I am being nice to you alrdy. and u took advantage of my kindness. Wad else can i say. Anyway, so i asked another friend in the group suppose to go for the dinner also. Asked her wanna go for dinner. She say she has to has her mom first. I was like.... HUH? i though we alrdy planning to go dinner le wad? Why did u still have to ask ur mom? So if the dinner is still on and your mom says no, den wad? Mayb i am just being stupid and stuff.. My kindness always gets eaten by someone. Wad a life to move into a new year..

I think.. no one is perfect. But.. We can always change the bad to the good. But none of them is changing. Mayb i should change too..

2011-01-17T00:04:00.003+08:00

Hello

I am getting more and more lazy to blog.. Bought so many things over the weekend. Clothes pants and shoe... Hmm.. I am sooo looking forward to the stuff i ordered.. :)

I keep looking at your profile.. You and this guy... Are you both together now? I feel soo jealous.... haix.. I wanna stop this feeling.... :(

2011-01-14T23:26:00.003+08:00

Hello!!

Finally i swap my work desk... Its goin to be a new learning again.. I am very scared actually.. Haix.. Watched Season of the Witch.. Too draggy.. Not nice also... Hmm.. My weekends is going to be a boring one.. Haix.. Today treated my team lunch... Curry fish head at bedok 58 was good! :)

2011-01-13T22:15:00.002+08:00

Hello....

Work was alrite today.. Went lunch with the gangs. They planning to go Thailand in June.. But i may have exams there month.. Plus one of my colleauge is goin to giv birth.. Dunno can go or not.. So ya.. Anyway, morning at work, i was sooooooo slpy.. Last few days keep 1am den slp... zZz... After work dinner with WL at NEX. Ate Texas Chicken.. And i stain my pants with the chill saurse. Sian.. Anyway, walk walk awhile... jiu home... Gonna slp early today...

My plan to Genting have changed. Planning to go on the thurday nite by bus.. And come back on the Sunday afternoon! Hope tat its fun!! :)

2011-01-12T23:33:00.001+08:00

Hello...

Today was okay. lunch with Japson they all.. After work go home rest awhile.. den treat wl dinner... Very tired.

You say u cant go cox you are "sick". And you can actually go to ur friend's birthday. Wad a bullshit..

2011-01-11T21:37:00.002+08:00

Annyeong!!~

Soooooo tiring now... Today is 11/1/11. Can you say is lucky or sway?

Firstly in the morning. I got the news that i will be changing my work place to the counter in front next monday. Which means i will be serving the customers now. Walk in customers. I was sooo slpy before the news. After i heard the news, i was like super awake. I kept thinking alot of things. Den lunch time. Boss treat us eat lunch. On the way there boss gave us a letter of our bouns. Anyway, during eating we ordered this mee fen. They fry with prawn and lala. One of the lala is closed. So i used my mouth to open. Guess wad. Inside the shell was alot of dirt and sand. i told my boss and the person refund the whole thing. Hmm.. After work go badminton with my colleauge. Very tiring.. Mayb cox i nv play for very long alrdy.. After that bus and train home.

What is life seriously? Work and get paid so that you got food to eat to keep urself alive to work again? I feel soo lonely at times.

Are you alright? Get well soon.

2011-01-10T23:02:00.002+08:00

Annyeong Ha Se Yo!~

Today was great!!! I had my first Korean lesson today!! I didnt feel bored at all!! Although is hard but it was fun learning it!! So much easiler den chinese!! HAHA.. Anyway, Work today was alright. I think Boss got strike 4D or smth.. Tmr treating us to makan lunch!! And this friday goin makan dinner for the team 3 gathering or smth. Soooo looking forward to it!! AND!!! tmr goin play badminton!!! Pls dun rain tmr!!!! :(

I kind of like her. Do i have the chance?

2011-01-10T00:26:00.003+08:00

Hello!!!~

Home whole day today!! Finish watching my drama God of Study!!! Nice show!! Gonna find a new show to watch.. Tmr startin my first korean lesson.. Looking forward to it!!! :)

2011-01-08T22:25:00.003+08:00

Hello Everyone!!~

Stock take today!!! For the first time!! I think stock take is so much better den jus sitting in the office doin walk.. At least time goes very fast!!! Today stock take was fast! After work, go cut hair. I super regret on cutting my hair. Alot of people say my hair is so thick. So i tried to cut very thin.. And it turns out....... SUCKY!!! Like RETARD!!! Super sian.. Please faster grow back my hair... Actually wanna dye hair but the place where i always go cut dun have the colour blue black. Plus must bleach the whole hair. I dun wan spoil my hair. My hair is alrdy so spoiled alrdy.. So in the end nv dye.. Anyway, after hair cut jiu home for a nap. Was sooo slpy and tired. Den after that went NEX for a movie. The ghost must be crazy. Erm.. Is not that nice at all.. After the movie, when i was goin down the escalator, i saw Xiao Ting, who is Weilong's cousin? HAHA... I still rmb wad happen.. Soo stupid of me.. HAHA.. Anyway, walk around, buy some snacks jiu go home liao.

Hmm.. Life is soo tiring..

2011-01-08T00:57:00.003+08:00

Hello~

Today was so moodly.. I saw the picture.. I was sooo stun... Haix.. When will i be able to move on?

Tmr work. Stock take. I think it will be fun..

I just wanna give you a gift. But why did u reject it? Is jus a little something from me... Haix.. Isnt a good day for me...

I miss the feeling of love. The feeling of hugs and kisses..

2011-01-06T23:52:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone!!

Work today was bad.... I was sooooooo slpy today!! Slpy like hell!!! During lunch time i took a nap. When i lie on the table and close my eyes, it jus fall aslp like tat.. Normally i will wake up around 20 mins by itself. BUT today i slpt like 45 mins and its a forcefully wake up. When i wake up my head was like sooo blur... Anyway, after work, went to Kbox at kallang. Leisure Park. We took the buffet package. 28 per pax. And we had so much fun and laughter!! haha.. Sang till 11 den train home.. And here i am blogging my day again. :)

Anyway, i think having too much friends is bad. U can't entertain every single one of them. You will slowly neglect those who is actually close to you.. Thus losing a friend instead. Don't you agree? hmm.. And for some people, they always agree in an outing very confidently. But when the date of the outing reaches, they jus say they are caught up with something. Do you know how the organiser will feel? The organiser makes the effort to actually gather everyone and plan everything but in the end u just say u cant make it? I know sometimes some urgent stuff will come out last min.. But izit always everytime? So qiao de meh? If you dun gave a damn you can just sound out.. hmm...

Nowadays, girls that are single is hard to find. Single as in nobody is wooing her or she doesnt have anyone she like. Why always when i so call like a person, she either have a bf alrdy, or have someone who she likes aldy, or someone is wooing her alrdy. I am so tired of finding. But i really miss the feeling. The feeling of loving someone and her loving me back , hugs and kisses. Haix.

Everything was jus a misunderstanding. I dunno why i felt quite sad. I feel sorry for my friend also. But is okay. Lets move on.

2011-01-05T23:43:00.002+08:00

Hello!!

Woke up at 10 plus today. Met Belinda and WL for the last revision. Didnt feel like eating lunch at all! Exam time!!! When i read through the question, i was soooo happy! Cox everything i study came out! It was such an easy paper!!! Write until my hand tired only.. HAHA... After exam slack at sch canteen awhile and after tat train to PS to watch the Little Fockers. Not bad show.. Quite funny. After tat home. Had a great day today! Jus felt happy!!! :)

Why do i have this feeling that you like me?

2011-01-05T00:20:00.001+08:00

Hello people!~

SHIT i was late to blog on the 4th of Jan! SIAN!! Anyway, working today was good. Quite fun. I feel like being closer to everyone alrdy. I feels good. After work went home to change and met WL for study at Wisma Starbuck. Joke of the day: WL was queuing for char kuay tiao. It was a long queue. And he was standing with his arms folded together. The person cooking said to him: "Hey wad you wan to order? Can you stand properly or not?" HAHAHA... But is this how the person should say to a customer? Damn him lar. Throw singapore face only. Anyway, studied topic 1-4. Tmr exam. I think i gonna die seriously. Scared like hell.. Anyway, gonna burn abit of midnight oil now. All the best to me alright?

Dear angels, you will be with me throughout the exams rite? :)

2011-01-03T23:45:00.002+08:00

Hello again!
Okay. My plan of studying jus now failed. I actually fall aslp at the desk when i am tryin to memorize something. When i woke up, i decided to take a nap. And i nap till 9 plus. Ate my dinner and recap wad i memorize so far. Topic 1, 2 and 4 is done. Tmr i am goin to start Topic 3. Seriously i dunno if i can even pass the exam. I mus chiong alrdy.. Tmr gonna slp late late liao.. Just remembered tat i having a K box session with my colleauge this thursday! Looking forward to it! I still waiting for my hair to dry. Anyway, was thinking wad hair style should i go with now. And i wanna try dark blue on my hair.. Cant wait to see the effect! Alright. May the Angels be with you all! :)

~Hope that my thinking is wrong.~

2011-01-03T18:05:00.002+08:00

Hello!!! Today running nose was like hell.. Work halfway went to the doctor. And the doctor says i have a nose infection! Which is why my nose is soo painful! Anyway was on MC today den i went home. Watch my God of Study which is very nice!! Actually wanna meet up WL to study.. I guess he is lazy again.. Anyway, Off to study on my own now.. FIGHTING!!!!

2011-01-02T23:36:00.002+08:00

Hello!!~~ Firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST SISTER!!~ Hope she likes the gift i bought for her! :)

Anyway, wanna meet WL at 10am at bugis to study. But ALARM didnt RANG at all!!! STUPID VERSION UPDATE!!! BUT! i kind of know how to solve the problem now alrdy.. Anyway, WL sms and says he nid more slp.. LOL... So ended up we met at 2. Study at National Library. The enviroment is good.. Very quiet. Can concentrade alot. After tat train to compass point to meet Belinda for study also. Study and talk cock till 1030 and home after that. To Belinda, hope that you can solve that problem fast alright? To WL, rmb wad i told you. :)

Hmm.. Lots of plan to change the house. But family is not even supporting. Plus money money money.. Talking bout money, i think i nid to pay so many things. But i am sure i can cope somehow..

Work tmr. Colleauge jio me go play badminton. But tmr nid to study!! So cannot.. But i am soooo looking forward to the tennis outing!! Alright.. Slping soon! Nitey everyone! :)

2011-01-01T19:58:00.004+08:00

Hello everyone!!! I am finally blogging again.. Wanna start off by saying Happy 2011 to everyone! The reason i wanna start blogging again is because i am a very forgetful person. So i want to write down everything tat happen so tat i wouldnt forget it after reading back. Bad or good memories.

Yesterday nite was awesome! Went to Jamie's place and had a countdown party cum Kar Wai's mini birthday celebration. Drink like nobody's business! HAHA.. At first we played this game called the 四十五点. It was quite fun! Can teach my friends next time! And we have this GONG杯. The person who drinks gets to pour as much of the drink as they wan! The funniest part was Kar Wai drank at first. So she gets to pour and she poured like half the cup! Forgot to mention tat the cup was damn BIG okay? HAHA.. And so in the end, she ended up drinking what she poured! HAHAHA.. And she was totally knocked out..... Even before the countdown!! HAHA!! So after that we change to a dice game. The dice has diff phases in each side of the face. Tat game was quite fast. Fast as in the pace of drinking.. After that was the most funniest part.. The HUH and MEH WAH game.. HAHAHAHA! I laugh until my whole stomach cramp!! But it was a lame game also.. HAHA... Anyway, drink and drink and drink. Drank so much.. First was beer. After that Gin. Den vodka. Den a chocolate mint dunno wad de.. HAHA... But i wasnt drunk at all! I was quite surprise myself also.. Drank quite alot. Hmm.. Home bout 1 plus. Uploaded the photos and off to slp.

Next day woken up by mom at 10 plus. Not to mention that i slpt at 430am. Bath and everything and off we go to Ah Pek House. After that jiu go the usual Bak Ku Teh we always eat since like when i am very small? Hmm.. Den off we went to Iluma and i bought a.... I dunno wad is it called. 72 bucks gone. After that went bugis to buy a korean show. Its been soo long since i watch my korean show le.. Anyway, so now back home blogging everything that happen today.

So, next week is my exam but i have only studied topic 1 and 4. And i can bearly rmb everything. I wonder i can pass my last exam or not. If i fail den i will drag my diploma course alrdy. So cannot fail. Hmm.. And i finally signed up for the Korean Language Class. It starts on the 10 Jan. Hope it will be fun! Soooo looking forward to it. Anyway, was planning to change my bedroom. As in to buy shelf and everything. New bed also perhaps. Change a new look. But everything needs money money money. Hope that my bonus can be alot. Planning to go Genting and KL at early March. Gonna save up also. Anyway, Hope we can have another fun time together again soon! :)

2010-03-28T21:39:00.002+08:00

Didnt know that that was a false feeling.. You just gave me the wrong feeling and i really though it is true.. but is okay.. At least i have this false but good feeling of looking forward to it.. Although it really hurts so much now.. You know, i have been dreaming of you.. Almost everytime.. I have alot of problem.. i really wish i can tell you.. So everytime i start to chat with you.. Either is you are happy so i dun want to spoil your mood.. Or you dun even reply me.. and got angry.. so i dun even dare to tell you.. This few days... I really broke down alot of time.. Its the lowest point ever in my life.. I have no one to turn to.. Just keep telling myself to run away from them and hope that they dun hunt me at all.. And to be strong in front of everyone as though nothing have happen.. but i am getting tired of this burden.. real tired..

2010-02-11T01:16:00.000+08:00

hmm.. Finally finish my NS.. Got a job and goin to start studying also.. Anyway, went dinner with my mom.. We talked alot.. And she was like asking... " So now you got gf? " I shook my head... Den she started to ask bout her.. Saying tat she is a very good gal.. And ask me still got contact her or not.. Ask if she got bf alrdy? And ask if i got ask her if we can start everything from the start.. I jus didnt say a thing.. I did my best le.. I know she is a rare gal.. Anyway, tokin awhile den i found out ginnmin (her best friend) was jus next table.. Hmm.. Anyway, my stressful life is goin to start after cny.. Good luck to me!!

2010-01-24T01:04:00.002+08:00

Some stuff i dun even dare to tell you.. Telling you but no reaction from you makes me feel like a stupid guy.. but is alright.. I dun mind at all actually.. Erm dun feel angry okay? I want to know cox i dun wan you to be sad or angry.. I wan you to be happy.. At least if i know, i may help in some ways.. Sorry to make you so angry again.. You know, i went to my friends wedding jus now.. They show all the photos that they have taken.. It jus reminds me of you.. I felt so down from tat moment.. Kind of hate weddings.. Sorry... Erm.. Hope you can try.. Try to accept me again in ur life.. The feelings will be back.. I really wan to go back to your that world again.. It is the one and only kind of world that i love.. Loving you outside your world, the load is heavy and tiring.. Every step that i take, i feel more and more tired.. I wan to let it go but i cant.. It is like the load is lock with me.. The one and only key to unlock it is in your world.. Now i cant go into your world to get that key cause you dun allow me to enter.. Once i get the key, i can free myself and love you more.. you know, is not tat i dun wan to stop it.. I jus... wan to keep trying.. until the day i no longer live in this earth.. Without you my world is upside down.. Everything is jus so wrong..

2010-01-21T16:56:00.003+08:00

You know, i m really really sorry about ytd.. I didnt know u were working ot.. i though u dun wan to reply me.. makes me so scared.. Tat monday ur replies were okay but suddenly u didnt reply.. And you told me u dun feel like replying.. Wonder izit true.. That day i though i got up another step, but in the end i m still back to square one... Nothing has changed.. Wad a crap minded i am.. Like your blog wrote.. liking someone is so tiring.. So do u understand my feeling? Although loving u is so tiring, i still holds on and will never let go.. i think this few days you will be doin ot everyday so i wouldnt bother you... Jus too afraid tat you wouldnt reply my msg, which is the last and only way to contact you.. thats why i am so kan jiong.. Sorry..

2010-01-18T19:18:00.002+08:00

You know.. I wanted to msg you whenever i think of you.. but i jus dun dare to do it.. I know you will feel irrtated.. Everytime i msg you, my mind will keep thinking "Will you reply? Pls dun feel irrtated.." You know, my feelings to you is true.. If not i wouldnt be waiting.. Even until now.. Its been 1 years plus tat i have waited.. I really wonder when will the day come.. or even it wouldnt.. but i will still wait.. 10 years, 20 years or even the day i go to heaven, i will wait..

2010-01-17T12:49:00.002+08:00

I really wish that you can consider.. Everything i said is from the bottom of my heart.. That really is my only wish i have.. Anyway, from the way your blog writes, i guess the *that is either he kissed you or hug you.. You know.. I really felt really jealous and angry.. but i cant really do anything.. So you are having a test soon... I will pray for you.. Hope that you will passed.. erm.. you know i dreamt of you ytd.. it is a good dream yet scary and werid? I dream tat me and you went out with my friend and his wife to be.. Your face is very blur and tats the scary part.. but i rmb ur voice.. tats why i know is you.. So when we were eating, dunno why i went off to get smth? When on the way back i saw kee jong and kim han playin football?? And they ask me to join them.. I said i m in the rush so next time.. When i went back, my friend told me you went home urself alrdy.. Not long i woke up by some alarm .. I tried to force myself to slp cox i wan to contiune the dream.. but couldnt.. Felt so happy even when i can see you in my dream.. The feeling is jus soo..... good? Anyway, is really not your fault... Dun blame yourself too much..

2010-01-12T02:01:00.002+08:00

I got some things tat i wan to talk to you about.. Hope that i rmb.. I still love you..

2010-01-10T01:15:00.002+08:00

I always believe.. And always loved you no matter wad.. The truth is.. My only wish deep down in my heart now is to be back with you.. Thats the one and only wish i ever wanted..

2010-01-06T23:36:00.002+08:00

Jus going to write here wad i wan to tell you cause i scared next time i will 4get everything.. I know you do overtime is hard on you and tired, so i decide not to disturb your rest.. So ya.. First thing first.. I think this Kian Hup will be the one for you.. U two seems very close.. Jia you.. You know when i saw your blog sayin tat he called you to tok when u r on the way home, makes me think of last time when u were on the way home after sch u will call me and tell me about your problems.. Seriously speaking, i felt pain in me now.. I know you wouldnt feel anything.. I jus wan to tell u my feelings.. Sorry.. Next thing, going for blood test tmr.. The last time i took the blood test is when i go for medical checkup.. Thinkin back how thick the needle is and how much blood is taken makes me shiver.. Erm next thing, about my family.. Shall tell you if i can rmb.. You know, i always push aside my problems.. Act like as if i m a human with no problems at all.. Tryin to make everyone around me happy.. Actually i was jus wondering, am i send by god to do this? I really wanted someone to listen to my problems and share the budden with me.. I am tired of carrying such a heavy thing all the time... Problems only comes in but nv goes out.. And read from your blog tat u r always having headaches.. better drink more water and slp earlier okay? If is too pain rmb to go and see doctor okay? Havin a very bad sore throat.. Do you know i still miss you every single nite tat i have? I will always love u.. Stay happy okay? Smile..

2009-12-22T01:07:00.000+08:00

Off to Malaysia.. =)

2009-12-16T23:09:00.002+08:00

I just bought a PS3 for myself.. Actually the real reason is to keep myself busy... So that i dun have the time to think so many things.. Problem coming in but not even one solve yet.. Who the hell can help me?? Anyway, took out my wisdom tooth ytd.. Is not tat pain but is still pain.. Hmm.. I didnt eat anything for the whole ytd.. Cox i was so scared of the pain.. So ya.. Hmm.. Looking forward to the trip to malaysia.. To relax myself.. Hope tat is fun!

Glad tat you had a job.. Is your first time so i will pray hard for you.. Jus be yourself and everything will be fine.. Do you know? My mermories about you is getting more and more unclear each day... It is so scary until i sometimes cry tp myself.. Someday am i really going to forget everything we have been through? It sound so scary too... Hope you are happy with your life.. And if you really like tat guy, go for it.. Jia you.. I will always love you.. ~

2009-12-11T06:23:00.002+08:00

What else can i do? Reading all those things you have wrote that hurts me but yet i cant do a thing.. So what can i do to stop the pain? I really wonder...

2009-12-10T14:15:00.006+08:00

You look so pretty.. That is the prettiest you i have ever seen.. I really wan you back into my life. I really hope i can do something... But i dunno wad to do.. I m sorry.. its been 399 days since we last been tgt.. No matter how long, i will still wait for you..

2009-12-07T21:48:00.001+08:00

Sailing tmr.. Hope is a good one.. =)

2009-12-06T23:34:00.001+08:00

I wonder if you even visited my blog.. I wonder if you know what i want to tell you..

2009-12-06T11:25:00.002+08:00

Got these sleepless nights... Nightmare almost everyday.. Had been slpin for like 3 hours everyday... Thinking every night about wad will happen in the future.. And i am serious, is every single night.. I really cant imgaine alot of things.. I think if she has a bf, i wouldnt know what will happen to me.. The past one year has been a toture to me... I really cant imgaine and dun wan to think about it.. Everytime everything just come back into my mind.. Thinking of who is that guy.. And lots of stuff.. Just thinking about that makes me shiver, scared, afraid.. I just couldnt face and accept this fear.. I think i will really break down.. My heart hurts so much.. This pain is the most painful of all the pain i had.. I wish that someone had the healing touch to touch my heart.. At least to ease the pain.. Every moment i thought of you, i will wonder, "What are you doing now?, Have you eaten?" all that stuff.. You are always sick so it makes me so worried.. And knowing i cant do anything, it makes me so angry on myself.. So i prayed everytime this happen.. So that at least i asked God to look after you for me.. At least it will ease my anger.. Dear God, you must really look after her for me.. Help her to recover all the sickness she has got.. As long as you help her, i am willing to do anything for you.. Anything...

2009-12-04T16:17:00.004+08:00

First of all.. I know is blog skin is so girly but i kind of like it.. Lots of things happen the past few months.. Problems that cant be solve.. Dunno wad can i do actually.. Felt useless at times.. Feel soo stressed up.. Really wish tat someone can tell me an answer on wad to do.. Do u all understand the feeling of being useless? Makes people pissed and sad at the same time.. Time flies.. Its been a year alrdy... But i m still trying my best.. Going ORD soon in 2 months time.. Once i finish my NS i dunno wad to do also.. Work? Study? Everything is going to start from square one again.. Jus hate this feeling... Even if study, wad course am i going to take? Wad sch am i going to choose? Alot of things i m soo afraid now.. Jus wondering why didnt i study hard last time... All this question, hope to find the answer soon.. All this fear, hope to overcome it soon..

Anyway, few weeks back my batch boy Mar Teng Fong passed away.. Think u all heard from the news and read in the newspaper alrdy.. Felt sad for him.. Everytime someone who i knows passed away, it makes me cherish my life even more.. Anything can happen at any day, any hour, any minute, any seconds... Treat every single day like as if its your last day.. If you get wad i meant..

Having headaches now.. Went to zouk ytd with zeju and cai hui for the SIM event.. Okay i think it was boring.. But at least i dance till i sweat it all out.. I felt better actually... Home at 3am.. Didnt dare to slp cox i nid to leave hse for work at 0630.. But i just cant tolerate anymore.. So i set alarm from 0600 to 0700.. Every 5 mins it will ring.. So slpt at 4am and woke up at 0615.. 2 hours of slp... Think after this i am going to slp all the way till tmr morning le..

*Nothing is with me.. I just felt jealous.. I want know who is that person and how he looks like.. At least mayb it will make me feel better.. When i came home, i want to read your blog.. But i was so afraid of reading it.. It hurts me to see somethings but i still read it.. Cox i want to know wad has happen in your life.. But as long as you are happy, i am happy for you also.. I am sorry to always make you so pissed off..* ~I am always trueful to you.~

2009-06-20T19:35:00.005+08:00

~20 June

Sooo boring at home... Lazy to blog... But i force myself to... Haha... Lets see... Ytd morning woke up quite early cox meeting my agent for smth... Met at bugis.. In the end laptop no batt.. Jiu go eunos to the office.. After tat met hweeling at eunos and trained down to city hall... Lunched pastamania... After tat we decide to go down bugis.. So walked down to bugis.. She bought a ring for his bf and a gift for ah qing... Or should i say a present cox her birthday is near.. After tat we walk here and there.. Went bugis ate some stuff.. after tat she went home.. I went down to clark quay to look for Jack, Ah bao, Ah cai, weilong, JunGuang and JunXiang.. After tat went Bardot for drinking session... Chat with them about alot of things.. Tok alot to them.. And i feel soo happy bout it.. But also.. i knew some of the stuff.. I really felt sorry and sad.. Around 12 plus all went home less Junxiang and Jack and me.. Actually i wanna go home... Cox tat time i was very drunk.. Felt like vomitting alot of times but couldnt... Grace asked me stay also.. Sooo yea... And my intention was to leave when Grace leave.. But in the end she left and i couldnt leave my xiang and jack there.. So i stayed with them lor... Haha.. Drink, tok cock and photo sessions... Haha.. We were soo high... Bout 5am shop closed... We took cab home... It was fun... Anyway, 2day didnt go anywhere.. Actually goin ice skating... But weilong cant.. Soo next time.. sure got chance de.. haha... okay.. here r the photos tat we took... enjoy!!

Anessa mami, Xiang and Jack
Xiang and Jack.. They are drunk.. LOL..

Mami and Me

JunXiang seems soo scared to go near her.. LOL...

Double okay!! =D

Jack, Recca, Xiang

Weiling and me trying add cute... LOL..

JunXiang and Weiling

Weiling and Jack

Me drinking... LOL..

Jack drinking...

JunXiang drinking!!

Bardot

2009-06-17T11:36:00.003+08:00

~17 June

WOHOO! I m back from my 6 days sailing... It was tiring... But i learn quite alot of stuff.. hahas.. BUT!! I had a sore throat last few days and ytd i had an high fever... But i think my fever is gone now... but my throat still hurts.. Hmm.. Ytd went movie with them at downtown east.. The land of the lost... I wouldnt recomment people to watch.. is quite dragging.. Not tat nice... Hmm.. Saw weilong's cousin ytd.. Erm.. I kind of dun feel too good soo didnt really wan tok to her... And... I hope i can say sorry to her some other time... Onli weilong, zile and junxiang knows huh... I really felt bad.. I felt like i shouldnt do it in the first place.. Wad m i thinking.... Anyway, this is to her... Hope u really like the t-shirt i gave to you... And please wear it!!! Hmm.. Anyway, i still couldnt 4get my past... it is into me everytime... i feel emo after thinking bout it... wad a life i have... Hmm.. still thinking wanna go out later with them... Feel lazy and sick... DAMN!!! hmm... slpy!!!

2009-06-08T21:39:00.002+08:00

~8 June

Hmm.. I think i did a wrong approach.. haix.. Kind of sad... Anyway, planning something is really not tat easy it seems.. Hope everything will work according to plan.. Suddenly i miss her soo much.. Hope to see her soon.. =)

2009-06-06T13:43:00.003+08:00

~6 June

Ytd woke up in the morning feeling sooo tired... i dunno why also... Slpy slpy.. Den after noon when jurong east for a event... Quite fun.. Meeting up with my batch boys... After tat we went sing K.. But i had to leave early cox i got FTT at 8pm.. Oh btw my friend jing cheng pass his BTT liao... LOL... And i passed mine too.. i cant wait to touch the wheels!! Hmm.. After tat bused down to boat quay to meet up with my friends... The place where we wanna go got some event so we cant go in.. when to a pub where bernerd always go... quite fun there also... sing and play and drink... Fun!!! Will be goin there soon again i think!! hahas.. play till morning 7 plus? Den bused home... Couldnt really slp... In the evening meeting weilong, zile and jun xiang for dinner again at downtown east... hahahaha... Go see his cousin again... Hahaha... Crazy.. Here and some photos i took.. I will take more the next time i go... =)

Me and grace

Jack and... I cant rmb her name.. LOL..

Weilong and... I dunno her name... XD

2009-06-04T23:39:00.003+08:00

~4 June

Wad a day 2day.. I still kind of feel werid.. It felt like i have done something seriously wrong.. But actually i did.. Curious leads me to sin... Hmm.. Anyway, Duty ytd and after tat morning hand over le jiu when down tampines safra for some event.. Den i went TP to find my friends?? Walk around there.. after tat bus down back to tampines safra.. Ate sakura for lunch.. It was not tat bad.. Hmm.. After tat..... join some of them for some fun.. After tat we went down to downtown east... Objective??? Is to meet weilong's cousin??? Hahaha.. Den went down ate fish and co. express?? i wonder where in singapore still have tis outlet... hmm.. And i ordered a fish and chip.. and the person we is serving me asked me " Do u wan the student meal??" i was like huh??? Ahaha... I look like student wor.. tats good!! haha.. Anyway, after tat we arcade until 9 plus... jiu went home le... Phew.. Wad a tiring day... Tmr got to be a good day too... Relaxing... I bought something for her.. I really hope she will like it... i like it myself... =) Still thinkin whether to buy one for myself also or not.. haha.. Eh here are some photos to upload.. =)

Haha... Me and Shy shy.. LOL.. Trying to take act cute photos... =D

2009-06-02T23:58:00.003+08:00

~2 June

I m back from blogging.. Kind of lazy last few months... Everything is the same.. Got lots of sailing coming up.. Mus miss me ya?? Went dinner 2day with Weilong, JunXiang and Zile.. Went to downtown east?? I kept looking around when i reach pasir ris mrt station.. Hope to see u.. But no luck... Anyway, walk down to downtown east.. den we went to see Weilong's cousin.. haha.. JunXiang wanna noe her... Haha.. I admit she is cute.. Haha.. and she joined us for dinner.. At the hongkong cafe?? Dunno wad izit called.. I ordered the nissin noodle.. But i think i ate like 3 mouth onli.. Cox dun really feel like eating.. Hmm.. Oh ya.. I asked weilong's cousin to guess my age... Guess wad?? She said tat i look like 21!!!! wow.. Didnt noe i look sooo old... Izit becox of my hu xu??? Hmm.. I wan to be young!!! haha.. Den after tat went up to walk.. Den saw smth very nice... I will buy it next week... For someone.. =) Den we went acrade play for like very long? I think? I play until very high sia... Haha... After tat jiu home le.. Next few days will be quite relaxing.. Next week will be very busy le... Jia You!!! =)

2009-03-18T19:09:00.001+08:00

~18 Mar

pls spend sometime watchin the video... or jus listen to the song... sorry couldnt make it auto play...

2009-02-15T02:41:00.001+08:00

~15Feb

Did u like someone? I feel soo uneasy.. I couldnt slp.. I couldnt stop thinking...

2009-02-11T22:31:00.001+08:00

~11Feb

A one day dream.. Is enough for me.. Thx alot.. I will try my best.. =)

2009-01-26T23:54:00.002+08:00

~26 Jan

You jus seems to like avoiding me.. Even how busy are u, u will always look at ur phone once in awhile.. but now... I think u have 4gotten me le.. I got alot of things in mind.. Got no one to share with.. My mom asked me in the evening... Why now a days i nv keep tokin on phone le.. I dunno wad to reply.. I jus say aiya dunno lar.. Be4 tat i pause awhile... Suddenly alot of things came back into my mind.. Haix..

2009-01-26T17:41:00.000+08:00

~26 Jan

Not even a msg from u.. Nth from u.. Nth...

2009-01-26T01:55:00.001+08:00

~26 Jan

I miss you soo much...

2009-01-26T00:45:00.000+08:00

~26 Jan

Happy CNY everyone.. Hope everyone is happy in tis new year.. Jia you..

2009-01-25T02:34:00.002+08:00

~24 Jan

So many things i dunno bout you.. You will find ur friend first and not tell me a single thing.. I m jus not in ur heart anymore.. You didnt say anything bout me in ur post.. I know u will say there is nth to say.. It is soo hurting..

2009-01-23T00:28:00.002+08:00

~23 Jan

Gdnite.. I m slpin now.. i goin medical appointment tmr and after tat return to ship le.. duty soo goin home on the sat.. Take care.. Xx when go sch okay? Gdnite.. I love u.. Muackxxs..

2009-01-21T23:27:00.003+08:00

~21 Jan

I called u at 6pm.. and u didnt answer.. soo i though as usual u are busy.. after tat i called u at 7.55pm.. and u didnt answer again.. sooo i though again.. Well u might jus finish school and with ur friends... And soo i was soo slpy.. And i slpt at 8pm.. Woke up at 10.20pm.. The first thing i do is i looked at my phone... no call no msg.. nth.. And i was wondering.. U cant possible tat from 6pm until 10.30pm in the nite.. U didnt look at ur phone at all?? Soo i tried calling u again.. And tis time u press away.. And u msg me a word.. Slpin... and i soo called asked u to explain why u nv msg me anything from my first call until now?? And u jus replied wad i wan??? i m jus worried and yet tats all i get.. Everytime when u jus reply "wad u wan?", i feel like jus throwing away my phone.. i wan msg u... yet u say all tis things.. let me think i m making u fan.. Soo when i nv msg u... u say i m taking revenge? I nv msg u.. Cox i see u everytime msg me, u always wouldnt be in good mood.. Soo now u say i m demanding?? i m jus worried and i wan to noe izit tat u dun wan reply me or wad.. if it is soo den okay lor.. wad else can i do.. firstly we slowly didnt meet up.. and slowly we didnt chat on phone le.. and slowly u dun msg me.. and slowly u didnt reply my msg.. i dunno wad will happen next.. i think slowly we will lost contact.. we came to a point tat u didnt even though of msging me le.. sometimes i was thinking.. izit u like another guy? and mayb tat guy sends u home everyday, asked u out sometime.. and all tat stuff.. if really soo i hope u can tell me.. everything u do, i jus wan noe why u do tat.. once u tell me, i m fine with it.. all i wan is to noe why u did it.. i nv wan to argue with u... everytime when i m not doin anything, i will jus wonder wad are u doin now.. even at lunch or dinner, i will jus wonder if u ate ur lunch or dinner... at nite when i used my com, i will jus browse through our photos we taken.. and i will start to cry.. rmb the trip to sentosa?? it was soo fun.. although is a rainny day.. and rmb how we always go out for shopping?? everytime u saw a dress or clothes u like, i will be happy to buy for u.. everything seems to be jus a dream now.. and slowly it has turn into a nightmare.. A real bad nightmare for me.. i really wonder.. how did u give up on me and 4get me soo easily? izit tat tis 4 years plus is all fake? it cant be fake.. I can feel the love from u.. until now i still couldnt accept the fact tat we r not tgt anymore.. i couldnt accept tat u r not replying my msg.. it hurts me soo much everyday.. no calls or msg from u.. seriously there was once... i jus feel soo crazy.. i jus couldnt take it.. and i bang my head against the wall.. Kind of stupid though.. at least the pain ease my crazyness abit.. hmm.. Didnt noe why i have said soo much even though i dunno if u will read tis.. but.. i jus wan to say.. I will still wait.. even one day if u 4get bout me.. i will still wait.. even if one day u found another guy u love, i will still wait.. as long as u r happy, i got no problem with it.. becox I love you..

2009-01-19T23:07:00.004+08:00

~19 Jan

U are busy with ur things.. I understand.. Gdnite to you.. will say gdnite to u every nite.. hope u will see it someday.. You are always in my heart.. Always waiting for you.. Gdnite..

2009-01-17T23:06:00.002+08:00

~17Jan

I nid you soo badly
I miss you soo much
I love you soo deeply
I wan you back..

I dunno wad happen to me.. My chest is soo heavy.. my mind.. i couldnt concentrade on alot of things.. i jus keep thinkin the same things over and over again.. i really couldnt slp at nite.. i jus stare in the blank.. i really hate tis.. is jus like i m living in a nightmare!! i truthly learned my mistake.. I dunno wad to do anymore le.. i got no more options le.. new year is coming.. yet i got no mood for it.. really no mood..

2009-01-10T13:25:00.002+08:00

~10Jan

It have been some time since i blog.. Nth much.. Ytd went back le.. But my eyes is still the same.. hope i wil be okay.. nth much to blog also.. life is the same.. anyway, new year coming le.. BUT! i haven even buy my clothes... hmm.. mayb tmr or wad lor.. Monday goin sailing.. Hmm.. actually time flies.. sooo fast... haix.. hope everything will go smoothly..

2009-01-01T00:08:00.003+08:00

~1st Jan

Happy new year everyone.. Hope tat everyone will be happy.. Except for me... relationship failed and guess wad.. First thing tat came out from my dad is shouting.. But is okay.. i talk to him nicely but he jus shouted back?? Wad a happy new year.. Life will be hard for me tis year.. Without her.. No one will care.. And i will be alone again.. Like always.. Hide in one corner.. =) and thx for changing everything in ur blog.. Deleting all those things.. I shall take away ur photo soon..

2008-12-27T16:28:00.002+08:00

~27Dec

Ahh.. 3 days nv blog.. Cox my eye got worst.. It was sowllen.. And i couldnt even see with tat eye.. and my eye keep rejecting lights around me soo i didnt use com.. And doc say is quite serious.. Soo he gave me another week mc.. till next friday.. Hmm.. Anyway, will rest at home and hope it will recover soon.. and.. thx for caring me.. i felt happy actually...

2008-12-23T23:31:00.002+08:00

~23Dec

Strangers...
tats all i can say..
My eyes is not getting any better..
hope tat someone will jus care bout me..

2008-12-22T23:20:00.002+08:00

~22Dec

Went to the eye doc in the morning..
woke up at 8.15..
and guess wad..
my appointment is at 8.40..
Den delay delay lor cox i lazy to wake up..
in the end took cab down to changi general hospital..
with my sister and mama..
Den waited waited..
Den went to c the doctor..
Doctor use the.....
ermmm...
the thing used to clean ur ears??
He used tat, put a drop of eye drop on it, and started cleaning my eye lid?
and is the inside, not the outside..
Kind of painful..
My mom and sis saw blood..
den i nearly vomitted..
Dunno why suddeny feel sooo giddy..
Den after tat clean hao le..
Doctor say is dunno wad virus stick tgt..
Den he help me clean away..
hmm.. den he gave me 1 week mc lor..
Soo ya..
after tat stay at home..
Den at nite go ahma hse..
nth much..
She is back..
Ya i miss u alot..
But jus glad tat u are back in one piece..

2008-12-20T13:12:00.003+08:00

~20Dec

Mc again.. this time is 4 days.. until 23dec.. Rest at home.. hmm.. nth much.. 2 more days before u come back.. Do u miss me? I noe i do.. And is alot.. My mom asked " where is ur gf ar?? Is she really soo busy?" And i jus told her cox u went overseas with ur family.. Den she was like "Why u sick soo long le nv see her visit u??" I jus told her i got go see her ar... And she said " Huh?? Where got sick people go visit their love ones?? Not the other way round??"and i said tat u jus nice tis week busy with sch work lor.. And she jus walk off.. Anyway, hope u are doin fine.. Went to hospital in the morning.. Doc say my right eye is infected le.. Soo mus go see eye doctor.. And the appointment is tis coming monday.. Hope everything is alright.. =)

2008-12-19T12:30:00.002+08:00

~19Dec

Home again... Mc 2day also.. Cox is swollen.. i mean my eye.. my left eye also kana le.. sian.. mayb tmr go hospital lor.. Hmm.. She went malaysia.. I m alone again.. Hmm.. Who will care for me now??? haix..

2008-12-18T22:32:00.002+08:00

~18Dec

回憶裡想起模糊的小時候
云朵漂浮在蓝蓝的天空
那时的你说
要和我手牵手
一起走到世界的镜头
从此以后我都不敢抬头看
仿佛我的天空失去了颜色
从那一天起
我忘记了呼吸
眼泪啊，永远不再
不再哭泣

我们的爱~
过了就不再回来
直到现在我还默默的等待
我们的爱我明白
已变成你的负担
只是永远我都放不开
最后的温暖~~~
你给的温暖

从此以后我都不敢抬头看
仿佛我的天空失去了颜色
从那一天起
我忘记了呼吸
眼泪啊，永远不再
不再哭泣

我们的爱~
过了就不再回来
直到现在我还默默的等待
我们的爱我明白
已变成你的负担
只是永远我都放不开
最后的温暖~~~
你给的温暖

不要再问你是否爱我
现在我想要自由天空
能离开这被规范的世界
不再寂寞
喔~~

我们的爱~
过了就不再回来
直到现在我还默默的等待
我们的爱我明白
已变成你的负担
只是永远我都放不开
最后的温暖~~~
你给的温暖

I would like to give u this song.. hope u like it..

2008-12-18T22:08:00.002+08:00

~18Dec

My eyes is getting worst.. much more worst.. when i looked myself in the mirror, i felt soo scared myself... didnt expect it to be soo serious... i jus wan to haf a chat with u.. 5 mins.. or even 1 min... is enuff for me.. But i dun think i haf the chance.. I duno wad to do myself.. I jus wan u to pei me.. Rmb ur ear? the place where it grew a lump? my tat place is getting painful.. i dunno why.. and my head.. is soo painful all around my head.. Is soo scary.. I dunno wad is happening to my body.. I jus wan to call u and jus tell u tis.. But dun think can.. Soo i jus wrote it down.. Hope u will read it before u go malaysia tmr.. And.. haf fun with them.. no nid to worry for me.. I jus hope u haf a safe trip.. =)

2008-12-17T12:04:00.004+08:00

~17Dec

MC for 2 days.. Actually is sailin 2day morning.. But they dun allow cox they scared my sore eye will spread to others.. Hmm.. Anyway, home resting now.. I cried when tokin to u.. haix.. Kind of nth to do soo upload some photos.. =)

2008-12-15T22:46:00.002+08:00

~15Dec

Hmm.. Nth much.. Morning when back ship for test... Alot dunno... Die le... Haix.. Den went home cox got mc... Den went movie with my sister.. Watched IGOR... Nice show... Den went bugis buy comic.. Den go ahma hse until now lor... at home le... Hmm.. My sore eyes are killing me.. When it is watery, i will use tissue to wipe away.. Den wipe away, will too dry.. Den will pain..den if too watery, very hard to see... very xin ku.. I dunno.. Mayb tmr after the poc i will go see doc again.. See wad they say... i miss her... think she is too busy for me... Anyway miss her alot.. And will always love her.. Nite...

2008-12-15T14:46:00.001+08:00

~15 Dec

ARGG.. having a bad sore eye... MC 2day... Sian... Wish me well.. =)

2008-12-10T21:58:00.003+08:00

~10Dec

"We are jus friends.." It hurts me alot.. Is all my fault.. I m the one who makes u fan.. I m the one who hurts you.. I m the one who is not a good guy.. I shall not bother you anymore.. I noe u will be happy.. Thx for 2day also.. Wanted to rest at home cox i m very tired.. But i wanted to see u soo badly.. Soo i made the effort to 4get bout resting... but all i get was "We are jus friend"
and i was on the way goin back to find u, i asked u where r u.. And u asked me where m i.. Soo i told u i jus came out of the library.. And u jus shouted at me.. And all along i m the one paying.. But u still wanna pay me back.. and everytime u tok to me bout ur stuff, i m really truely listen to every word u say.. Sometimes i dunno why i will jus stone there while listening to u.. Sometimes i will jus thinkin of wad u say.. tats why i m jus standing there, seems like i haf no fan ying.. I m sorry.. Tats the problem with me... nvm.. It wouldnt happen anymore.. I dun wan to be friend le.. I jus couldnt.. I noe u could and although i dunno how u did it, but i jus cant.. i jus cant stop calling u dear and stuff.. mayb u can cox last time u nv really call me tat.. Anyway thx for 2day.. I m really happy to see you.. Dunno when will i be seeing u again.. Mayb wouldnt le.. And u r pretty 2day... really pretty.. jus soo happy to see you.. Thx alot.. it meant alot to me.. thx alot for the "hi" in msn.. Anyway, next week monday i will be having a test.. Or should i say two test ba.. Scary lor.. But i think i will fail.. come to think of it.. Everytime whn i m scared, u will be there for me.. But think now i shall depend on myself le.. if fail jiu fail.. Nth much anyway.. Life isnt goin soo smoothly for me.. I felt so trap everyday.. Trap by problems, feelings, stress.. hope all this will jus go away.. I love you.. And nth can change tat..

2008-11-22T11:43:00.002+08:00

~22Nov

It doesnt matter to u anymore.. U haf change soo much.. I jus wan you back to wad u use to be.. But i think it wouldnt happen.. Cried alone while in sailing last five days.. Was soo stress up.. Den keep thinkin of you.. Kept lookin at the date everyday.. Looking forward to the day i can meet you.. But all i jus said was mayb not meeting you.. And u say "nvm lor".. I didnt even mean it.. Cox it hurts me.. We onli can go out as friend.. Mayb it doesnt mean anything to you... but it meant alot to me.. And the meeting meant alot to me too.. Every meeting up with you, it means alot to me.. I cried on the phone, u jus hung up.. and dun even care.. When ever you say the phase "What do you wan?", it makes me soo scared.. Makes me dun noe who are you.. All i can say is sorry.. U nv did tat to me before.. You haf change soo much.. I will jus throw away the things tat i bought for you.. I will tell my mom when she gets back.. I dun understand why izit no point.. i m really soo hurt and lonely.. I dun even dare to tell me friends wad happen.. Telling them doesnt help.. At least you hav ur friends.. I think tats enuff for you.. Anyway, wish you all the best.. I dunno wad to say le.. some of the things i wrote here.. i wouldnt go and do it.. I noe i cant do it.. I jus couldnt let go.. I jus wan to see your face.. Jus one sec.. Its enuff le.. jus wan to see you smile.. like you use to smile at me tat makes me happy.. Jus wan to hug u soo tight tat i dun wan to let go.. I dunno wad to add on but.. Hope tat later you will ask me out.. I m jus soo scared to ask u out.. I dun like the feeling of being rejected by you.. I got lots of things i wan to tell you, wan to share with you.. Jus you..

2008-11-16T21:37:00.002+08:00

~16Nov

Goin slp soon as tmr goin sail le.. Wish me luck.. Hope tat i can come back in one piece.. Stress up.. And i will miss her very much.. Nv had miss her soo much before... pls noe tat i love you..

2008-11-16T02:09:00.002+08:00

~16Nov

My love ones... My close friends... All drifting away... All is my fault... is a waste of time to live on earth... for a person like me.. next week goin for 5 days sailing.. I will miss her.. Hope she will miss me too.. i love you..

2008-11-09T23:53:00.000+08:00

~9Nov

Somebody... Jus kill me.. Or mayb i should jus die myself... Mayb... ... ...

2008-11-06T19:28:00.002+08:00

~6Nov

I got nth left.. Nth.. Hope tat time will jus go back..

2008-11-02T21:07:00.003+08:00

~2Nov

Friday came out after a healthy run at east coast... Den at nite went to kai kai concert.. Actually prefer choir den band ba.. Haha.. Anyway, i 4got i m meeting xiaolong yati.. The next day wanna call her to ask her help me buy tix de... Den she ask me y i nv call her.. I was like... OH SHIT!! Totally 4got.. No wonder tat nite i was thinkin tat i 4got to do smth.. Sooo sorry.. I will doo smth to bu chang de... Den sat went out with baobei.. Watch 2 movies.. haha.. And we had fun too... walk here and there... joking around... Den saw the christmas tree.. Super nice... Den we took photos.. Did haf fun.. Hope tat it help her wash away her saddness.. Tmr goin back le.. Soo sian... No mood.. Haix...

2008-10-27T17:59:00.004+08:00

~27Oct

Hmm.. Life sucks tis few days.. Stress stress stress.. And also is my fault.. I really dunno wad m i thinking and doin.. Haix.. OJT jus sucks.. Nid to rmb sooo many things.. Who can help me get through tis??? Haix... Anyway, these are some of the pic taken be4 my ojt's..

Thx guys.. Bestie Forever.. =)

2008-10-21T23:08:00.002+08:00

~21Oct

Guys, i will be confined tis weekend .. Think can come back on monday cox holiday.. Hmm.. anyway. life is stress... Very stress... Haix.. hope i can get through tis.. Jia you!!! =)

2008-10-20T00:54:00.002+08:00

~20Oct

Happy Birthday TO ME!!! =) Had a fun day ytd.. on 19oct lar.. haha... went out with baobei.. went to city hall eat.. Actually wanna eat pizza hut de.. but in the end we went to eat new yolk.. haha.. was nice.. Den head down to harbourfont den train to sentosa.. Walk around.. Sat the dunno wad thing? Haha.. very scary actuallly.. haha.. Den walk from the beach to the underwater world.. Saw alot of fishes?? I was like... WOW.. haha.. Is very fun... Is recommended.. but very ex also.. 22 plus per person.. Soo ex.. but worth lar.. now i jus summary of wad happen.. Cox i goin slp soon le.. Scared of tmr.. Tmr will be my first day onboard the ship le.. Hope everything will be fine.. haix.. Anyway, I m 1 year older le.. But i haven 20 yet.. soo i m still young... lalalala.. Anyway, jia you ba.. =)

2008-10-11T23:38:00.001+08:00

~11Oct

Guys u all can contact me le... My line is back.. =)

2008-10-11T00:11:00.002+08:00

~11Oct

Hey guys... Due to something wrong with my sim card, i m now uncontactable.. i will try to do smth about it asap okay?? =)

9 more days to born day and my hell week.. =(

2008-10-05T18:02:00.003+08:00

~5Oct

nth much tis few days... jus feeling tired.. tis few days is not very good.. jus hope tat my problems will go away.. but tat wouldnt happen.. i will solve it as soon as i can.. haix.. tats life ba.. sian.. tis coming week will be a hard week... next week also.. After next week, i will be posted to ship le.. Dunno even will have time to lay down on my bed blogging.. Duno even will haf time to go out with baobei and friends... hope everything will be fine... Anyway, 15 more days to my birthday!! Really looking forward to it.. But also.. Dun really wan to look forward to it.. Cox on tat day will be my first day on board ship.. Soo stress bout it.. Haix...

2008-10-04T10:31:00.001+08:00

~4Oct

I m sorry.. Is all my fault.. I really nid u now.. Really wan to c u now...

2008-10-01T23:25:00.002+08:00

~1Oct

Happy Children's day to everyone!!! Haha.. Morning woke up... normal lor.. haha.. Den went to miao bai bai... Den met baobei at aljunied mrt? Den we went back to the miao.. Den went eat ba ku teh with my family.. Den walk walk at great world city.. after tat we went vivo to watch movie.. Sooo long didnt watch movie le.. haha.. Watched eagle eye... Not bad lar the show.. hmm.. Den went to eat chicken rice?? haha.. Is nice... after tat trained home.. we had loads of fun in the train lor.. and baobei keep laughing lar.. laugh until her stomach cramp i think? haha.. Soo now at home.. Blogging down.. She scared she 4got wad happen today.. hahaha.. okay.. Actually we took alot of pic but.. The rest of the pic i m very ugly soo i didnt wan to upload it.. haha.. SORRY!! =)

2008-09-28T10:08:00.003+08:00

~28sep

Sooo tired 2day.. dunno y.. woke up by my brothers alarm.. Stupid rite?? Sunday put wad alarm?? Lame.. Anyway, ytd morning woke up... nth to do... slack the whole day at home.. Den 7 meet baobei for dinner.. we went to burger king to eat? she treat me eat.. hmm.. den saw my bro and sis, darren and yati.. Den saw a sec sch teacher.. dunno wads her name.. teach chinese de... Anyway, went walk walk at toys r us... had fun there.. haha.. Den walk around... Den saw adrian pang?? I think tats his name.. the guy who is the actor of the 9pm show now... hmm.. den went food court buy baobei's brother food? Saw zeju and joshua.. Sooo long didnt c them le.. Hmm.. Actually ytd was a very good day... suddenly saw soo many people in jus 3 hrs... haha... the world is sooo small... hahaha... anyway, after tat went to my relative funeral... got the news from my sis on friday afternoon.. was sooo shock.. actually.. i feel sad for my ahma... cox my relative last time almost everyday call my ahma to chat on phone... but now..... hope my ahma is okay... life is soo scary.. haix.. Hope everything will be fine...

haha.. i like tis pic...

i made those... For my brothers... =)

2008-09-21T11:28:00.002+08:00

~21sep

Goin back camp in like an hour time.. soo have a fast blog... Friday book out.. met baobei at tenah merah.. Den we went bugis to eat qi ji.. hmm.. den jiu go home le.. cant really rmb.. sorry...

den ytd.. Slack the whole morning and afternoon at home reading manga.. Den evening met corny at bugis.. shop for gavin and jian hao's present as 2day is Jian Hao birthday and gavin is at tis wednesday.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JIAN HAO!!! HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY TO GAVIN!! Soo yup.. I actually was shopping for pandent with the shape of trianglar.. But is super hard to find.. Cant even find it lor... Haix.. den corny suggest buy friendship band... But.. i dun think gavin will wear sooo... hahaha.. Den think and think.. he think of making the bottle with the name inside.. i was like... wow!! mayb i can do tat.. haha... Den buy the stuff tat nid to do tat... Hmm.. After tat saw shi hao... haha.. I even saw sir poh.. Omg... singapore is soo small.. Hmm... And also me and corny bought a shirt for gavin cox we think tat all his shirt he wore is soooo... "uncle".. hahaha.. Soo yup... Den home sweet home... Reach home jiu start to do... Was figuring out how to do.. Finish the whole thing within 4 hrs??? Haha... My back soo suan lor... haha... Den use com jiu slp le...

Hmm... this few days i m reading story book.. werid huh?? Haha.. I jus finish reading a book called For One More Day... By Mitch Albom... Is a good book.. U should read it... OKay... till here.. Wish me happy... =)

2008-09-16T20:45:00.001+08:00

~16 sep

I jus wan to see you... I jus miss you..

I wouldnt worry soo much le.. Sorry..

2008-09-16T13:14:00.003+08:00

~16 Sep

I m home from hospital... Went there for x-ray... early mornin reported sick.. Den doc there ask me go hospital do x-ray cox i got cough.. Cox of the virus inside me lor.. Den book out at 10.30.. took cab to changi general hospital.. Den went c the doc there.. The doc there very hao lian? Cox i wanna ask him question de.. he jus interupt me.. In the end i nv ask.. zZz.. Den do x-ray.. Den went back to the same doc again.. he made a appointment for me to check on my cough.. Anyway, X ray was fine... soo yea.. took medicine le jiu go home le.. Hmm..

Anyway, Sunday morning.. went back to camp in the morning.. Cox my duty!!! first time i do duty on sunday.. But lucky is with nic.. And we had fun.. haha.. actually sunday duty is better den weekdays... Soo yup..

Den ytd, was super bad day for me ba?? In the morning actually wanna report sick for my cough.. Den i call my classmates.. They say mayb we got confinement... I sian liao.. Den nv report lor.. My cough is soo bad tat is very hard to slp at nite.. Den went back class room.. Awhile more say dun haf the confinement liao... zzz.. Lucky lor.. Anyway, study lor.. Soo many things to rmb.. My brain cant take it anymore.. Very stress... haix.. Anyway, dun wan think soo much.. okay shall write till here.. =)

Btw tis is the lyrcis for all my songs in my blog.. =)

Empty by Click Five:

Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn't think I'd miss her
That muchI wanna fill this new frame
But it's empty
Tried to write a letter
In ink
It's been getting better
I think
I got a piece of paper
But it's empty
It's empty
Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty
And I even wonder
If we
Should be getting under
These sheets
We could lie in this bed
But it's empty
It's empty
Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty
Oh ohOh ohOoooohOh ohOh oh
Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty
(Maybe we're trying)
(Trying too hard)
(Maybe we're torn apart)
We're empty
(Maybe the timing)
(Is beating our hearts)
We're empty

The Call by Regina Spektor:

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word
And then that word grew louder and louder
Til it was a battle cry
I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye
Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never
Been this way before
All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war
Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye
You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye..
Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget
Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
Til they're before your eyes
You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye
You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye..

Bye Bye by Mariah Carey:

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye
As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying "I miss you"
But when we talked too
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face
[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye
And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever
[Chorus]
(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye
This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandfather
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye
[Chorus]

Lydia By F.I.R:

Lydia 迷離的眼眶
為何流浪　
心碎的海洋
受了傷　
連微笑都徬徨
Gypsy女郎　
為誰而唱
你會看見霧　看見雲　看見太陽
這面的大地重複著悲傷

[Chorus]
他走了帶不走你的天堂　
風乾後會留下彩虹淚光
他走了你可以把夢留下　
總會有個地方等待愛飛翔

Lydia 幸福不在遠方
開一扇窗　
許下願望
你會感受愛　感受恨　感受原諒
生命總不會只充滿悲傷
[Chorus]X2

2008-09-14T03:55:00.003+08:00

~13 Sep

Happy birthday waileong.. Although is next sat.. haha... Anyway, friday met baobei.. I got 2 friends who is same sch as her.. sooo qiao.. haha.. den went for dinner at bugis... ate the hong kong dunno wad de.. u all should try.. is nice.. =)

2day nth much.. afternoon went out with my tk friends.. ate long john.. den walk walk.. Den ate ice monster at plaza sing.. den walk again.. den jiu go down temple.. i stay there awhile jiu go meet waileong.. cox he wan celebrate his bd ma.. soo yea.. den went home at 3am.. took cab.. the driver drive very very fast? like 120km/h?? i was like... wow... is he in a rush or wad? haha.. and now here i m.. blogging..

tmr goin back camp le.. cox got duty... soo sian lor.. eat away my sunday.. sian sian sian.. nvm lor.. next week will to sian again.. study study study.. jiayou ba.. =)

i put a new song.. its call empty.. by click five.. i like the song alot.. enjoy.. =)

2008-09-07T03:23:00.002+08:00

~7 sept

Happy Birthday Samuel.. =) When to meet him ytd cox he called me to meet him.. haha.. say wanna go pub.. soo i anything lor since his birthday ma.. sooo went to clarke quay mrt station wait for them.. waited for like 1 hr?? zZz.. But is okay.. i met my agent soo yea.. after tat went to meet them at 7-11.. Den went to pub lor.. the service there quite good.. cox our ice not even half finish, the staff there will auto refill for us.. even our drinks.. and also will haf a staff from there to tok to us.. den like very funny lor.. they send us a thailand gal.. den onli know abit english.. den we like soo quiet.. soo pai sei.. hahas... Anyway, after tat went to bus stop to take bus home lor...

Anyway, afternoon met baobei.. asked her to pei me study for my test tis tuesday... soo stress bout it.. if i fail the test, sat will be mine to stay in camp... and i dun wan it to happen... anyway, met at bugis... den went to library... but dun haf space to sit down and study.. soo i suggest to go marina square the chaos jr?? dunno how to spell.. Sat there study and playin with baobei.. haha.. had lots of fun.. and i keep goin toilet... haha.. saw yvonne and my ex cabin mates.. hahas.. soo qiao.. after tat went to food court eat.. Eat the hot plate.. i order something like chicken chop... soo ex lor.. 5.80... and sooo little onli lor... after tat send baobei home? hmm.. i m too tired to think wad fun we had le.. haha.. love you!!! <3

my memory... jus sucks... haix.. and i m sorry for all the wrong i had done.. i m really sorry... haix..

Friends... wad r friends?? after a day, they jus throw u aside... is tat wad u call friends... sometimes i jus wan to find someone to chat with... i noe i got baobei to share but she sometimes can be busy with her studies.. friends is also needed.. haix.. i really sucks at friendship man.. Jus sucks..

Anyway, life goes on.. i will be goin on to ship soon le.. Will haf even lesser time... i think by the time, all my friends are gone... hope not ba.. =(

2008-09-02T00:45:00.004+08:00

~1 sep

didnt book in 2nite cox dun wan go for tmr morning stuff.. soo ya.. get to slp at home for the last time.. hmm.. baobei pei me the whole day 2day.. but in the morning met my agent... den meet baobei... hmm.. chop chop with her lots of stuff.. i love baobei!!!!! <3>

anyway, suddenly got tis weird feeling... a feelin i hate.. damn it... dunno wad feelin is tat.. think tmr will be gone.. anyway, jus to let u guys noe tat... my memory is geting worst everyday.. soo pls dun blame me for 4getting stuff okay?? =)

hmm.. am i really stupid or wad?? i think i m always taken advanage by my friends... one day i m very good to them and they like very good to me.. suddenly the next day they change into a stranger to me.. Chat with them nicely they jus dun gif a damn bout u... Mayb tats life.. Hmm..

also bout my blog music player.. if it doesnt play or wad, jus refresh the page okay?? tryin to fix it.. soo yup.. =)

2008-08-31T00:49:00.002+08:00

~30Aug

Hmm... Actually, i 4get quite alot of things le.. My stupid brain.. But i remember cityLONG and when i nearly fall down.. I was like... PHEW!!! BaoBao nv HOLD ME!!!! RWAR!!! No lar.. got lar.. haha.. We had lots of funnnnnnnnnnnnn... At sakae sushi, i ate the vege thingy.. i drop while holding it on my chopstick.. I think i saw got one piece drop between my legs.. But baobao say i drop on the plate.. After i leave the place, i saw the piece of vege on the chair!!!!! And i ask baobao to c my backside got stain or not but guess wad? bao bao jus keep laughing!! laugh until i pay the bill... I kept askin leh.. baobao jus laugh... haha... funny.. hmm.. still got wad ar?? 4got liao.. haha... fun fun fun... anyway, soo tired... Went alllll the way from aljunied to queenstown hor... jus to past file to baobao... c i soooooooooo good.... haha... okay.. i tired le.. goooo slp slp slp!!! hehe...

2008-08-28T02:36:00.003+08:00

~27Aug

Jus curious huh?? Okay den.. Slpt late and woke up at 12 plus i think? Cant rmb.. Den msn-ed with gavin.. Was discussing if we should eat first before meeting them... After tat bathe and went out.. Reach at bout 3.15?? Jus nice they jus reach... Anyway, we went eat mac.. after tat actually wan go mind cafe, but i was thinkin of watchin wall-e cox 2day is the sneak preview... oh ya.. actually ts was tagging alot.. after me, gavin and nic heard tat ts was coming, we were all shock! tis should be our cabin outing.. y is he coming??? but in the end he didnt come.. den on the went to buyin ticket, jianhao was sayin he ling yuan to haf 100 ts den having one "one packet" to go out with us.. He also say he ling yuan haf 100 "one packet" den having one "dianana" with us.. Which means he ling yuan haf 1000 ts den having her with us... Very funny.. Anyway, bought our tickets and we went shop at gramaphone... A cd shop?? Den went in to watch movie.. After movie Gavin drove us to cck to eat as we were goin to his hse play majong.. But after dinner very late le.. soo didnt go.. Drop corny nearby his hse and drop us off at cck mrt.. Thx gavin.. i hope to owe my car fast... Anyway, nic wan me and jianhao to lobang his cab soo okay lor.. alight at dunno wad mrt station.. 4got the name le.. Den mrt-ed to ang mo kio.. Den bus-ed home... Reach home at 10.30pm.. used com till now.. anyway, i really will change myself.. I jus nid the time.. I will do some mistake.. But slowly i will learn from my mistake.. Haix.. Late le.. having headaches.. very tired also... Dun wish to think soo much now..

2008-08-26T12:59:00.003+08:00

~26Aug

booked out ytd.. after tat went to my friend funeral.. My the other friend drove me and my bunk mates there.. Very sad... I nearly teared also.. But jus holded back... anyway, sat there till 10 plus? Den gavin drove us to sambawang mrt.. took train to ang mo kio and took bus home.. reach home bout 11.30.. Super tired... Cox of a event in the afternoon.. tis whole week.. i dunno wad to do.. stayin at home everyday... no friends to jio out anyway.. jus slp at home ba.. pictures tat i took with my bunkmates in the swimming pool.. =)

Jian Hao, Corny, Me, Gavin

2008-08-24T01:19:00.001+08:00

~23Aug

photo taken 2day.. had much fun with them... makes me smile... thx friends...will be meetin them tmr... cya guys... =D

2008-08-23T00:22:00.002+08:00

22Aug~

Booked out.. Went to see my grandma.. Was send to the hospital due to her leg.. got the news from my mom.. Was soo shock.. the same day i got the news, nic, who is my bunk mates, grandma also went hospital.. Same at tts... I saw my grandma.. i nearly teared.. my uncle was there also.. i wanted to stay longer but my grandma keep sayin is late le and kept asking me to go home... I felt very hurt and sad and bad... seeing my grandma like tat.. it really hurts me also... Reallly really hope she will recover soon.. i will pray for her... I feel soo emo now a days.. No friends... No nth... Jus me alone... Mayb i should start getting use to it.. Haix...

2008-08-17T18:05:00.002+08:00

17Aug~

Goin back camp soon le.. Came out on friday evening... Time gooo soo fast.. Haix.. Anyway, didnt meet baobei tis week.. Miss her soo much.. Hope she noes tat i m missing her... Hmm... Went to the 7th month thingy oh friday and sat... 2day i slack at home the whole day... I feel soo empty 2day.. Feel soo weird.. one day i nv go out i will feel weird.. zZz.. Anyway, nth else le ba? kind of cant rmb wad happen tis few days?? My memory is getting worst le.. How?? I think i got no friends?? To me all my friends are important to me.. Sometimes i treat them good but in return i get nth.. Mayb tats life?? hate my life... i m back to my emo times again... haix...

2008-08-02T11:55:00.002+08:00

2 Aug

Eh guys, my blog is under building... Hahas.. Blog kind of rot liao sooo wanna change everything.. =D

2008-07-20T18:56:00.002+08:00

20 July~

AT LAST!!! Can load tis stupid page liao... zZz... Life everyday is the same.. Too slack liao.. Make me feel slpy all the time.. Hmm.. Anyway, very rush soooo.. Up till here ba.. Hope to change blogskin soon... Haix..

2008-06-15T09:52:00.002+08:00

~15June

AT LAST!!!! POP LOH!!!!! hahas... No more recuits.. Now privite liao.. Hmm.. Ytd was my pop day.. Friday nite i jus couldnt slp... I was lying on my bed.. And turning here and there.. for like half an hr??? Hmm.. Anyway, woke up at 5 plus.. Slpt at 1am i think?? Hmm.. Den prepare for the pop... Soo happy tat time.. Soon at 9am.. my pop starts.. Hmm.. When i first march in, my whole body was shaking.. Sooo many people!!! I was sooo scared.. Hmm.. Anyway, everything went out fine... Den at the last part, my mom came down to put the... Eh.. I dunno how spell tat.. Is a cap i guess?? Hahas.. Oh btw.. my mom, my sis and baobei came down to c my pop.. Hmm.. sooo ya.. Sooo fun... took pics also... She took alot of the photo also.. Hmm.. Anyway, after tat we took the bus to tenah merah mrt.. Den took cab home.. after tat we went vivo.. Cox wanna go sentosa... BUT sooo many people... Den baobei dun wan go.. Den jiu okay lor?? Be4 tat we went eat the Asian kitchen.. the la mian there is super nice leh... Hmm...den we went to the sky park.. Baobei say she was tired.. Den slpt at my shoulder?? Awhile later, i asked her if she wan to go to the shelter to slp.. Den okay lor.. Den we went there.. And she slpt on my leg... She slp until soooo shuang lor... Slpt for like half an hr... haha.. slp until like pig.. after tat, walk walk...Den went watch movie... GongFu Panda.. Funny show.. Hahas... After tat we went food court eat... After tat send her home le.. Hmm.. Had a great day ytd!! hehe... but there is more to come!! haha...

2008-06-08T00:41:00.002+08:00

~8June

Hmm.. 6 more days to my POP... And 3 more days to baobei's bd.. 2 more days and she is coming back!!! Miss her sooo much... And she even recorded something for me.. I really love it very much... And i teared while listening.. Really miss her soo much.. Anyway, my last book out as a recuit... WEEE... I think my life will be easiler le ba.. Hmm.. Anyway, miss lots of my friend... Hope u all will contact me soon.. Haix... Take care all....

2008-05-25T13:52:00.002+08:00

25 May~

3 more weeks and my recuit life is finally over!!! Wahahahahaha.. Soon i will haf a better live i think?? hahas.. Anyway, hope everyone is still fine?? Stay in contact with me okay?? Miss baobei!!!! =D

2008-05-18T00:22:00.002+08:00

17May~~

Book out 2day... Went out with baobei.. When i saw her i was sooo happy lar!!! We hug until soo tight.. hehe.. anyway, went down marina sq eat.. wanna eat kfc de... Cox she wan eat burger.. But the fish burger is out of stock??? Weird.. Den no choice lor..Den eat long john?? Den went mac.. She do her hmwk lor.. Hmm.. Den.. went buy stuff for her concert tmr... I m goin watch her perform!! Haha.. Anyway, she buy a cough syrp for me... Cox i got cough.. Quite long le.. Den after tat walk walk lor... Take alot of pic also.. haha... Den went eat dinner... Den we went esp to take pic.. Den we go home le... Sooooooo happy to c her.. OH! I bought a dress cum shirt for her?? Hahas.. Really hope she likes it.. Anyway, navy was soo stress.. Lots of stuff happen.. Anyway, gtg slp le... jia you everyone!!!

2008-04-30T23:48:00.002+08:00

30Apr~

2 Hours ago i jus book out.. 22 hrs later i goin back in.. Which is tmr nite... Sian lor.. Haha.. Anyway, 2day training very tiring.. Keep on having punishment.. zZz.. Anyway, Jus to tell every one i m okay... hahas... Cheers everyone!!! =D